I know you may have noticed that I left off the word “happy” above but that was on purpose. Why? you might wonder. Well for more than one reason really. I promised when I began this journey to always be honest and transparent, and so here we go.
I have said many times I am not a big fan of Mother’s Day, yes you read that correctly. And before you decide how you feel about my saying that, please hear me out. I know it is a wonderful day set aside to honor our moms and shower them with gifts and words of affection and that is all awesome. And after much thought and contemplation I think I finally have the answer to why it seems to stir certain emotions within me.
I have been blessed to be the mom of 5 beautiful, wonderful children. They range in age from almost 29 down to 11 years old. Wow! I know, we for sure cover all the age categories. We never have a dull moment that is for sure. So you would think that I look forward to this day every year. And maybe me saying I am not a huge fan of the day sounds very unappreciative and uncaring, but that is not the case at all.
Proverbs 31:28 Her children rise up and call her blessed,(happy, prosperous, to be admired)…
I certainly don’t feel I reflect the woman being spoken of in this verse much less the entire chapter. The truth is that even after all the years of being a mom I still can feel like a failure in this role on most any given day or time. Can you relate to that feeling? If you are really honest I bet you know exactly what I am talking about don’t you? I promise you are not alone. I actually had one of my stellar mom days just today, the day before Mother’s Day. I had big ridiculous rant with one of my kids that started from basically nothing, talk about feeling the pain of failure. So why would I want or feel like being celebrated? To me it is just a reminder of all my shortcomings.
But honestly it is our shortcomings that point us right back to the Lord isn’t it? If not then they should. They are a constant reminder of our need for the Him. Because none of us are perfect no matter how hard we try, we will always fall short and mess up. We are all imperfect. And God is so gracious and patient with us, He is always there waiting with open arms to remind us of who He is and more importantly who we are in Him. And then he lovingly forgives us again and again. And gives us the wisdom and guidance we need to continue growing in our role as a mom. His book is the best parenting book I know.
In a nutshell, being a mom is the best and the hardest job we could ever have, but it is so worth it. And as for my feelings about Mother’s Day, well I am going to embrace it this year. We all deserve to be celebrated, not to shine the light on our shortcomings, but to realize that our shortcomings are not what define us. It is simply a beautiful day to be thankful for the gift of being a mom.
Happy Mother’s Day!